notgentle: (Regret.)
fights rain ([personal profile] notgentle) wrote2017-11-26 06:45 pm

For Helena

[The situation at three in the morning is as follows. Dio had gone to bed all at once in the same clothes he wore the whole day, halfway ready to throw out the entire experience as a bad dream. This scheme failed. He couldn't sleep... and he remembered some place out in the mall that had bothered him. And so, he sits down on a chair in there.

One cat sits on top of a palm tree, pawing at the top hat. A second cat is sprawled across his lap, and Dio is petting it. He's gathered some sushi from "Yay!" set out for them. A third cat pads across the floor and nuzzles against Dio's ankles in the process of getting at the food.]


There you go...
totalbullshit: (negative; sad)

[personal profile] totalbullshit 2017-11-28 12:45 am (UTC)(link)
[ Well, it was worth a try? ]

... looks like I'll be living off canned food then.

[ And it shouldn't bother her because fancy food is basically like fancy clothing and everything that surpasses the necessities tastes of prestige and arrogance... but the thought is still a little jarring. ]

Might as well have late dinner while I'm up here though.

[ Now if only she could cook................... ]
totalbullshit: (negative; why won't you get it)

[personal profile] totalbullshit 2017-11-28 08:52 pm (UTC)(link)
Hm? [ She doesn't bother repeating her name in the American accent, this way's as good as any to her. ]

I'm a societal drop-out.

[ Judging by her intonation she might as well have been saying she's right-handed, but as she continues more force enters her voice. ]

I'm tired of participating in a world that cultivates the meaningless and lets people feed on costy illusions. This mall perfectly encompasses all that is wrong with the world - have you seen the price differences down in the stores? We're not equal even in a death game. We're defined by numbers on our digital bank account, that's all we are until we're out cold. It makes me sick.

So until I think of a way to leave this place behind for good, I'm planning to reject any and all participation in the foolishness of it all.

[ It's not the best plan right now, but it definitely pleases Helena more than the idea of playing along does. They want her to live here? She'll reject it, reject the other participants as far as she can, reject buying anything more than the dire necessities... and eventually... well, something is bound to reveal itself? ]
totalbullshit: (negative; SARCASM TIME)

[personal profile] totalbullshit 2017-11-28 10:35 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Huh. Hearing that she 'has a point' from someone who lists fashion as one of his likes is unexpected. Just a day ago, she'd been having this conversation with Kaz and it went poorly, worse than she expected. There's of course a chance that those profiles are manipulated and untrue, but her own seems spot-on...

Helena nods, maintaining eye contact with Dio. ]


Even that doesn't quite cut it - a gilded cage might make things readily available to placate us while keeping us captive neverytheless. But like this... what are we supposed to do once the money runs out, when stealing puts us at risk? They'll have us wrapped around their fingers, begging for them to give us work so we can afford the barest necessities.

Buying those luxurious items here tempts us to go out of our way and exhaust our resources early, making us even more desperate. Yet they can count on it that concepts of prestige are ingrained into us - we're brainwashed into thinking the more expensive and rare things elevate our self worth, which is why binge buying when you feel down is so common.

[ In a way, the design of this trap is to be commended, if you felt like complimenting your jailers. Just a few weeks earlier, Helena would have fallen victim to the very same flaws she's pointing out now. A chilling thought. ]
totalbullshit: (negative; side-eye)

[personal profile] totalbullshit 2017-11-29 12:02 am (UTC)(link)
[ Considering the fact that literally no article of clothing on Dio's body (barring the scarf maybe) can be considered elegant, stylish or fashionable, his vanity doesn't stick out to her nearly as much as it reasonably should.

A fourth challenger cat appears by then, curiously tapping into the space between the conversing humans. ]


That's the question. They're very insistent on the murders being done one-at-a-time with only one final winner, so it would definitely get us more time to get through than we have money for if the group cooperates.

Which I for my part don't intend to do.

[ And she hopes this sanity is shared by others. ]
totalbullshit: (fear; uh oh)

[personal profile] totalbullshit 2017-11-29 12:50 am (UTC)(link)
I'm going out on a leg in that not only one person here wants to leave desperately and experiencing a murder does not make people less violently on edge. Going out on both legs, the organizers of this probably thought the same.

[ Then she falls silent for a moment, considering the second part. ]

You're right though... if we fail the investigation we get 'punished'. Are you assuming punishment is an execution or did that get confirmed? Because if so...

[ Then that's a game seriously skewed in the favor of whoever attempts to kill and she's Not Happy with it. ]
totalbullshit: (negative; why won't you get it)

[personal profile] totalbullshit 2017-11-29 02:00 am (UTC)(link)
... we don't want to risk it until we know for sure.

[ She says this line fairly quietly. His frustrated trailing of is understandable and the box of horror he opened by bringing up the impossibility of a proper investigation doesn't make anything better. Helena wants to escape the world. This does not at all equal to dying. ]

For investigating, we'd have to rely on the detectives and trust them not to be the killer. Ugh.
totalbullshit: (gen; reading)

[personal profile] totalbullshit 2017-11-29 02:50 am (UTC)(link)
[ She tilts her head at the question. ]

I've only been in Japan on vacation, but I wouldn't know this to be any different from police badges elsewhere. You could make a counterfeit, but they have security measures that make them hard to replicate accurately and hold up to scrutiny.

[ A pause. ]

I couldn't tell you what qualifies a Japanese one for real though.
totalbullshit: (smile?; schadenfreude)

[personal profile] totalbullshit 2017-11-29 11:42 pm (UTC)(link)
It's skewed against us in every possible way. They're providing us with a minimal chance in order to keep morale up, but a lot of that is illusionary...

Here's to hoping whoever snaps is sloppy in their panic.

[ She gives a lopsided grin, certainly not too optimistic but unwilling to give in to despair either. ]